IVF Round 1 = fail. It’s over. And the feeling was not mutual.

It's over. And we weren't ready for it to be. We didn't get to experience the sense of completion that follows an embryo transfer or the closure that comes with a negative test result. We simply didn't get that far in the process. Our only 2 embryos stopped growing after just 3 precious days and... Continue Reading →

A tale of two Sumo’s

This is kind of a long story but I wanted to share because I think it could be useful to someone, somewhere, someday... Rewind just one week and I was in the kitchen administering my first IVF stimulation injection with nothing but quivering hands and total optimism for some good ol’ text book follicle growth.... Continue Reading →

How to be Zen AF

Anyone who has so much as dipped their little toe in the ocean of infertility will have been told, at one point or another (but most likely several hundred times), that they need to “just relax”. Given that the reason for mine and Simon’s infertility is a lack of motile sperm (which is quite obviously... Continue Reading →

Lights, camera, ACTION!

I saw a solitary magpie this morning. One for sorrow. I never used to be one for superstitious tendencies but I'm not taking any chances these days. You think I'm in any sort of position to turn a blind eye to one of those thieving little monochrome bastards? Think again. I did a small head... Continue Reading →

IVF countdown: thoughts at 1 month to go

Our first IVF cycle begins in January and despite the fact that it’s taken 812 days and 29 sad, unfertilized eggs to get to this point, I’m still in a state of total disbelief that we’re here. But we are here and this is happening. [For any fans of The Office (US version) – that... Continue Reading →

18 Responses to that “when are you going to have a baby?” question…

“When are you going to have a baby?” Shortly after getting married, I started being asked this at an alarming frequency – not by my friends and family but, almost exclusively, by people who weren’t particularly close to me (distant relatives, nosey neighbours, Barbara from accounts etc.) It’s an incredibly invasive, potentially triggering and not... Continue Reading →

The TTC tribe, sisterhood & the best fertility blogs

At the beginning of 2018, with over a year’s worth of very decidedly unsafe sex under my belt and shortly after learning that my husband and I were working with “sub-optimal” (read: lazy) sperm, I started writing a journal…of sorts. At this point, nobody knew of our desire - let alone our struggle - to... Continue Reading →

Fairytale of New York

Almost exactly 7 years ago to the day, Simon and I flew to New York on what would become the first of many flights together. This trip, the idea for which was drunkenly concocted in the wee hours following our fourth date, was perhaps one of the most reckless things I’ve done. We were, all... Continue Reading →

NHS vs Private: the battle for the bump

Paying for private fertility treatment is a luxury (and I use that word lightly) that not everyone can afford. On the flip side, access to free fertility treatment on the NHS is a luxury that not everyone can take advantage of. The “postcode lottery” in the UK means that, essentially, the street you live on... Continue Reading →

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